#52 -- Woken from the Nightmare
Apr. 30th, 2011 02:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
[His handwriting's pretty messy since it still hurts to write.]
Here's a tip for all you new kids - don't ever leave your journal behind. Ever ever. Or you may get lost in the Wilderness alone for 3 weeks (or more!) with no way to ask for help and no way out.
And if you do, then all you can do is hope the Adventurers do their job - and they do; try thanking 'em sometime - 'cuz it'll have to be one of them who drags your sorry ass back out of there.
Smoke
[Not that he's bitter about the experience, of course not. He's been here long enough to know better and not make these mistakes, you know.]
Here's a tip for all you new kids - don't ever leave your journal behind. Ever ever. Or you may get lost in the Wilderness alone for 3 weeks (or more!) with no way to ask for help and no way out.
And if you do, then all you can do is hope the Adventurers do their job - and they do; try thanking 'em sometime - 'cuz it'll have to be one of them who drags your sorry ass back out of there.
Smoke
[Not that he's bitter about the experience, of course not. He's been here long enough to know better and not make these mistakes, you know.]
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Date: 2011-04-30 02:21 pm (UTC)I'm really glad to see you guys too, even on paper like this. [Alone for three weeks ;; ] I'm at my place, enjoying having a bed again.
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Date: 2011-04-30 02:29 pm (UTC)I'm coming over. Right now. Do you need anything?
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Date: 2011-04-30 02:36 pm (UTC)Nah, seeing you sounds great, don't worry about bringing me anything.
quicklog?
Date: 2011-04-30 02:44 pm (UTC)I'll be there in two shakes!
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-04-30 03:05 pm (UTC)---
[The door's unlocked for if she wants to come right in. He's sitting at the front table, drinking some instant coffee. Suzy'd been outside the whole time same as Smoke, so he's been plenty content to just sleep in Aniki's old room. This is only Smoke's 2nd day back in Edensphere after having been rescued.
He won't look any worse for the wear at a first glance, since Cephiro & Cloud took care of the immediate problem.]
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-04-30 03:19 pm (UTC)There you are! Come on, get up. [And as soon as he is on his feet--you can't tackle-hug a person sitting down--she's upon him and her arms are wrapped tightly around him, though she is mindful to avoid his shoulders after what she observed of his conversation with Stellaris.]
You're feeling all right? You've been to Medical, right?
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-04-30 03:39 pm (UTC)Tons better after Cephiro and Cloud found me. [When he steps back, he gestures to his left shoulder-blade.] Just a little stiff yet, and it's my dominant side, so what're you gonna do?
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-04-30 04:18 pm (UTC)So a bit more before the Bar is back to the full complement of people, hm? I had to hire a couple of new people, but I think by now there's enough that we'll manage even if someone goes missing. It's happened a lot lately.
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-04-30 04:43 pm (UTC)Quicklog! (hired people are NPCs, we can name them later)
Date: 2011-05-01 10:12 am (UTC)What happened to you in the Wilderness? Do you... want to talk about it? I'll certainly understand if you don't, I mean.
Quicklog! (Works for me)
Date: 2011-05-02 06:16 am (UTC)Ah... Remember that chat about parents we had awhile back?
[Pause.]
My mom was there. Or someone who sounded a hell of a lot like her.
[There's obviously more and he's seriously debating if he wants to say anything; he leans on the back of his chair, then looks back up at her.]
She had a lot to say to me. And then tried to kill me.
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-05-02 03:47 pm (UTC)[She remembers their previous conversation about parents; it left her with the impression that his childhood has not been an untroubled one. That invokes a sense of strange kinship in her, as if she can sympathise, but what he says next makes her face twist in a mixture of horror and empathy before she can stop herself.]
I... I'm so sorry. I kind of thought you... well, might not have had a very normal family, or anything of the kind, but...
I'm sorry. You just told me something that had to be hard to say, and I'm babbling. I see, then. That kind of bad thing. Mine... wasn't really that horrible, but it doesn't seem that Wilderness let anyone off easy.
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Date: 2011-05-02 04:50 pm (UTC)Honestly, the other stuff she said was actually worse. All that time I spent as a kid? Guess I kinda dealt with kid stuff already, but the rest of it... [He rubs the nape of his neck now with the same hand.]
She basically said I was wrong - how I've been acting for two years, trying to figure out how you just deal with this place... Pretty much ever since I found out my old name - [He never calls it his 'real' name] - I haven't used it, because hell if I know what that guy was like or who all of his friends were. I still don't even know if that's what Mom looks like! I've only ever heard her voice in my memories.
[He looks like he could say a lot more on the subject, but just closes his mouth and looks down at the table, hands folded up and his forehead resting on it.]
Gojyo's whole life was lost to me at one point, but now I'm starting to forget people here too. Have I really been wrong this whole time, to not use Gojyo's name?
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-05-02 07:20 pm (UTC)Cautiously, she reaches out to lay a light hand on Smoke's shoulder as he slumps.]
I met someone in the Wilderness who frightened me a lot, too. I'm still not sure who he is, but he... said it'd be only a matter of time before I went over to his side. That I was going to turn against my friends.
Whatever is down there right now, it can get inside your head. It makes you see things that make you doubt yourself.
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-05-02 07:33 pm (UTC)[He cranes his neck a little to look in Kagerou's general direction, a faint smile on his face.] Much prefer a rowdy night at the bar - especially these days.
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Date: 2011-05-04 11:49 am (UTC)[Kagerou has to smile at that, so Smoke gets a small, lopsided grin in return.]
And I'd rather focus on what's up here, you know. The part that's real, and... not the Wilderness. I suppose it's real in some way, but sometimes I'd rather not think about it.
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Date: 2011-05-05 03:18 am (UTC)Always did prefer the upper floors, myself.
[So Smoke sits up a little taller, slowly getting out of his mood slump.]
But who's Materia? One of the new folks and Axel got to be buddies with or something?
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-05-09 09:13 am (UTC)[A brief, glum look passes in her eyes, but she shakes it off, almost stubbornly.]
I mean that she died. But... she came back, and gave herself a new name, and now she's Materia.
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Date: 2011-05-10 05:32 am (UTC)Quicklog!
Date: 2011-05-10 06:34 am (UTC)I think she named herself after something she saw in her dream the first time. Maybe she found something that fit better, this time?
Well, it... was bad. She was attacked by a monster on Crystala. I'm just trying not to think about it.
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Date: 2011-05-10 03:49 pm (UTC)Which is great, because she's fun to be around at the bar, isn't she? [He tries to gives her a smile.] It'll be nice to have that kind of... buzz about the place again.
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Date: 2011-05-12 02:06 pm (UTC)[She sits up straighter, as if trying to draw herself up from the spell of moody reminiscence.] It's been lively enough, yes, and I think we're finally back to a, well, sensible number of people. Things are actually working out even if someone can't come in. And that happens a lot.
Quicklog!
Date: 2011-05-13 06:45 am (UTC)If not I'll just rest up this arm and be back there as soon as I can. [He smiles brighter for her.] Always has been my favorite place to be, after all.
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Date: 2011-05-13 06:02 pm (UTC)I'll tell you as soon as you're back in full form! So you'd better make it quick. It's just another bartender, and someone to whisk around glasses when Materia's not there and I'm too busy trying to work out wobbly cocktails, really.
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Date: 2011-05-13 06:29 pm (UTC)Quicklog!
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