Crazy, crazy dreams

[inthecenterfold]

... I get slammed with tons of work for a few days NO ONE TOLD ME THEY'D TAKE MY JEEP and you people write so fu freaking much... gawd god, do I actually have to read all this?

'Cuz honestly? I'm not really in the mood. Talk about a nightmare...

What sucks is it felt SO DAMN REAL. Like, a worse version of that dream I came in with. I knew SOMEONE hated me but god, my own mom? Is this Memory Dream #2?

I don't know how a kid could live like that...

I think I need a drink. And some REAL good cigs.

[[OOC: His writing is extremely messy, quite a few misspelled words, and definitely not in a straight line across the page, probably a few letters bunched up on the far edges.]]

[[Also, for your amusement, compare Smoke's dream with Chosen's dream. Weird coincidences, hm?]]

Comments

[hunny-sensor.livejournal.com]

Hey, man. You okay? Everyone seems to be having strange dreams.

...What happened?

[allidoisfight.livejournal.com]

The dream I got wasn't mine. Might be the same for you.

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

No seriously - there were parts in there that looked like they came from the dream I was born with and then someone just turned it into a big fucking NIGHTMARE

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

"Red taboo child" and bathed in blood. That's what both dreams are tellin' me.

Like- seriously, why would a MOTHER MOM tell their kid "You should've never been born"?

Talk about making a kid grow up and fast.

1/2

[hunny-sensor.livejournal.com]

!

2/2 (Crossed out after a minute of hyperventilation)

[hunny-sensor.livejournal.com]

You weren't supposed to see that! How the hell did you--


That..


I don't know. But that sucks.

[allidoisfight.livejournal.com]

Nobody's ever had a second dream before as far as I know... huh.

Guess it's possible though.

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

How can you hate a kid just 'cuz he's born with red hair?

I mean are people seriously THAT superstitious?

I had the feeling being called 'human' sounded a little weird, but if it's 'cuz my own MOM couldn't control her damn temper...

[[furious scribbles]]

I don't want to hate my own mom...

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

This could be why being called 'human' feels weird.

Like I was always told I wasn't or something. "Taboo child" and all that, but not 'human'.

[hunny-sensor.livejournal.com]

Hey, guy, relax. All right, I'm gonna come clean.

From the looks of things, it looks like people are having other peoples' dreams.

You had mine.

Guilty as charged.

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

Look, even if that's true...

It felt like... Serious, a LOT like my own. That's just...

Weird. Damnit.

I told Trust it's like someone took my own dream tossed it on some kind of Nightmare Blend.

I'm a "blood red taboo child" too! That part's from my dream when I was born here. Yours The one I had last night... just reinforced that feeling.

... & I think it was my mom too.

In my dream from back then... there was a blade & lots of blood. I felt my cheek a few days ago and realized I had scars there - two of 'em.

I don't want to believe my own mom would do that to me.

[crownofsnow.livejournal.com]

I don't think you have to read everything, but I do. ...I have a fair guess but I don't know why. Do you need someone to be around? It seems everyone is experiencing everyone else's dreams. Or so it seems?

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

I'm still torn between if this is his dream or mine.

They're so similar...

[hunny-sensor.livejournal.com]

Misery loves company.

We should make a club or something.

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

Look I'm sorry, I'm not trying to spread this shit around, I'm just trying to deal.

I mean...

Now that I've had some time to think about it... I just wanna know why. To stop all the questions. Then just... move on.

There's other red things in life than blood, right? Or something. I think someone told me that once.

[crownofsnow.livejournal.com]

I had someone else's dream.

...That is a problem.

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

At least you're sure it's someone else's.

I dunno... parts of it make so much sense to me. Most of it, actually.

[crownofsnow.livejournal.com]

That's true.

On the bright side at least it means you can relate to someone here?

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

I'd rather not be able to relate about this kinda stuff.

This makes me glad he didn't get Allen's dream.

[crownofsnow.livejournal.com]

Point taken. But still, are you going to be alright?

That might have been better, actually.

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

If the dreams stop being about family members, maybe.

That's just... it feels like a touchy subject is all. Like, I could have handled "you're dead" dreams or weirdly psychadel pyschotik psychotic stuff.

Hey...

...

Thanks for bothering.

Or caring.

Or whatever.

[[OOC: Father figures would have just confused Smoke because he never knew his dad. ^^;; ]]

Poor guy. the more they uncover about his past the more I wince.

[crownofsnow.livejournal.com]

I don't think I've ever had family so I don't know how that feels.

I don't think I can handle people dying, it feels like I failed to save them.

You're welcome, I'm Cross by the way one of the medics here. If you ever want to talk or need patched up I'm usually at the clinic.

;w; Smoke needs friends!

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

People need to toughen up & be able to defend themselves, seriously.

Cross. Noted. I may just do that sometime. Especially with this how messed up this place got in a quick way.

[[OOC: In case it wasn't obvious, I have read up to fairly recent DGM stuff, so I know all about Allen's tragic past too. ^^;; It's just a joke between some friends and I that the 4 main Saiyuki boys fight for "most tragic backstory" and I always push for Gojyo being the worst off.]]

He does!

[crownofsnow.livejournal.com]

I guess you're right but I still try to help when I can.

I figured it would go weird when I was told I've been here before. How I forgot everything I don't know.

[ooc: No worries, it was obvious. I meant about Gojyo's past though. I always felt it was a toss up between Gojyo and Sanzo. Those two never get a break. I need to need to catch up, I'm still on Reload volume 8.]

=^_^=

[inthecenterfold.livejournal.com]

That's gotta be rough... I don't like people just up & leaving so other people worry about em.

But you seem nice enough to wanna work around stuff like that. At least I don't hafta worry about that. No one said anything like that to me & I think I'd remember a guy like you. Unless it was from before here.

I'm all for helping people... it's just nice when they WANT the help, yknow?


[[OOC: Manga > anime once you get to Reload, seriously. I actually always tossed it up between Gojyo & Hakkai. Gojyo had the joy of listening to incest in the next room over, plus Taboo status ever since (so like, most # of bad things). Hakkai's is the most recent - freshest wounds - and he was the only one who knowingly and willingly committed the bulk of his 'tragedy' as a full-fledged adult, while the rest are kids.]]